one person

If you could meet one person who would it be?  I know if I could meet someone it would be my oldest sister Jamie. I have seen pictures of her, hung her stocking on the mantle, helped decorate her pumpkin for Halloween, and have visited her at the cementry but never got to meet her in person.  Jamie came into my families lives on 12/24/1977, four weeks before her projected due date and in just 4 short months was taken to be with our Heavenly Father due to kidney failure. I think about this more after Ian came into our lives. Ian and Jamie shared the exact same due date 1/25, both came before their due date (Jamie 4wks, Ian 3.5wks) and both had a issues that required additional attention.  I honestly can't imagine what my parents went through I've heard the stories of their many trips to Riley and their stay there as well.  One time my Grandpa H arranged for a police escort for my dad and Grandparents W. to get down there to see my mom and sister.  But to think about having to bury your child at 4mos or any age at all breaks my heart into a million pieces and tears start to pour.

I have attempted to write this now about 5 times and all 5 times I have had to fight back the tears in order to keep typing.  No matter what I write I don't feel I'm doing her justice.  I have visited her grave in the baby land, the same grave that my parents and grandparents keep clean and place flowers at.  Growing up on her Birthday I remember going to the cementary and my parents would get out place the flowers, my dad would clean off the her name plate and then they would hold each other for a few moments before getting back into the car.  I think those moments touch me even more than ever before now Ian is here.  My parents are strong and have been knocked down more times but each time they have faced the issue head on and are amazing. 

So today on Jamie's birthday we will visit the cementry where my parents laid her to rest 32yrs ago. We will clean off her name plate if my parents or grandparents haven't gotten a chance too.  We will thank God for our baby boy who is healthy and happy and the light of our lives.


With all that and still suffering from blurred vision, I will wrap this up remember this Holiday season to give thanks for your healthy child/children and warp your arms around them and simply love on them, give thanks for their health, and remember God is in control.